God is Good

Its been very good for my family to participate in vacation bible school this week. Its been good to gather together with others to pray for the children that will be joining us during the day. Its been good to be surrounded by godly women. Its been so good to serve. Its been good to get outside my own head for a few hours each day. Mostly, its been good to be reminded that whatever we are going through today that God intends for everything in our life to be used for our good and His glory.

Today, during a conversation with a dear friend I found myself moved to tears yet again with the details of my future. It was something as simple as where my four-year-old is going to go to pre-k. I realize this seems like such a simple thing, but more often than not these days its those really simple things that just drive me to tears.

This evening as I tucked Isaiah into his little bed I was reminded of a little story I've told Isaiah countless times. Its a story of a young woman with a broken "tummy" who couldn't have any more children.

"God knew my tummy was broken so he had to put you into another tummy, but as fast as He could he brought you to me because God always meant for me to be your mommy."

When I tell this story to Isaiah, I always ask him, "So where did you come from Isaiah?"

Isaiah always answers- From your hopes and dreams and from your heart.

He will then usually say, "And as fast as He could God sent me to you."

God always meant for me to be this little boy's mommy with all of my weaknesses and with my current set of broken circumstances. God meant me to be Isaiah's mommy and God is going to place Isaiah exactly where he needs to be to grow and be safe.

This is evident because both of my son's are safe and loved tonight in their home. They are safe! Its a home that a few month's ago I never thought I could have afforded and never dreamed I'd be in. Its a home God provided so my boys could have a place to grow and be safe.

Please pray that I would have more moments where I recognize the goodness and provision of God and less moments of shear panic.