I have often heard people talk about the day they met their spouse. They have spoken of a miraculous moment when time stood still. I have had few "time stood still" moments and never any pertaining to a romantic interest. I must confess, I have been a bit sceptical of such stories and perhaps even a bit jealous.
I meet so many wonderful people at church. Everyone is so friendly and there are so many volunteers. I thought I had seen most of the volunteers on my shift. I have also been greeted by every single usher. This is at least what I thought. Needless to say, I couldn't help but notice one man who kept darting back and forth like Speedy Gonzales. He caught my attention because he seemed to be in such a hurry. I wondered if perhaps there was something I could do to help him so he wouldn't have to be in such a hurry. Another worship song came on and distracted me from this man to the point I forgot him completely. I went on to continue greeting people as they came to church.
It is noteworthy to mention that another quirk of mine is that I normally do not like to be touched. Its something I know will happen so I tolerate it, but in the past its caused me significant alarm. I can tolerate touch from women and children for the most part. I am thankful that God has moved me past the stage of significant alarm to the place where I am almost able to ignore the feeling that I have to upchuck my cookies most of the time. However, its not without great effort on my part. I literally have to take in a deep breath when a man touches me for fear that I will become physically ill. Its a bit difficult to explain why you've just thrown up on someone after they hug you!
I continued to pass out the bulletins and greet people coming in when I felt someone touch me gently from behind me. I didn't know if it was a man or woman because I couldn't see them. However, the touch I received made me feel similarly to the experience during worship. It was one of those full body and soul kind of moments where time stands still and you feel yourself overcome with something supernatural and glorious. It was phenomenal. I turned to find out who touched me. It was the speedy man I had seen earlier.
I clearly heard God speak to me not in my head, but in my spirit. He let me know that this man was the man I had been praying and seeking and asking for. I was still dizzy from the realization that a man had just touched me and not only did I not feel ill, but I felt blessed. I felt my knees go weak and almost fell to the floor and literally had to take a deep breath to balance myself.
This evening, I went through my usual routine of putting Isaiah down for bed, prayer, and reading. I picked up the house and prepared things for tomorrow. Then I went to my own room where I check out Facebook before I start my own prayer and reading time. I thought about the incident at church earlier this morning. I had made so many wrong choices in men. I didn't want to make another wrong choice. I knew the next man I'd marry would have to be arranged by God. As my heart and life lined up with God's purpose. As I checked recent posts on Facebook, I noticed a face smiling back at me in the colum where "friend suggestions" float down. There was that speedy man on the right side of the screen! "You have 2 friends in common" the screen informed. I sat there staring at his face and wondering what this man would think if I contacted him. I imagined myself standing next to him. God gave me a picture in my head of this man and I speaking to others about God's son. It would be a perfect dance between God giving me a word and then giving this man a word and together God would use us to reach other people, especially those with deep hurts and those with relationship issues.
God had told me that my future husband's heart and soul would seek me. I wondered if this man knew his heart was seeking me. Just when I was about to walk away from the computer, I felt God's strong prompting once again. Finally, I couldn't ignore God's prompting any longer and sent him a fairly silly message saying hello to him. We ended up speaking all night long. Yes, this man's heart is definately pursuing me. I wonder what speedy will think when he realizes it.
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