No Time To Panic

We had an appointment this morning for Isaiah's routine immunization visit. He took his four shots like a champ, by the way, announcing to the nurse that he wouldn't have to be held because he is "stronger". He even held his shirt up for her so she could give the injections to him in his arm. Although, he did complain to her that the shots really hurt him and next time she should only give him two. After she placed the band aids on his arms, he asked if he could take the boxes of band aids home with him!

Prior to giving Isaiah his shots, Dr. Keller does the usual looking in the ears and such. Dr. Keller was listening to little man's chest when he looks up from his glasses and asks me, "What does your cardiologist plan to do about his heart?"

I thought I was going to fall out of my chair!

He explains that "its probably nothing" but had his nurse call several doctors until they found one that can see my little boy for an echo cardiogram and work-up right away. He goes on to say that he thought I had told him Isaiah was under the care of a cardiologist and that is why he didn't make an appointment for me last week. He thought Dr. Karnik, Isaiah's neurologist, was a cardiologist.

My initial thought was to go fetal. My second thought was to panic. I decided to pass on the first two and try to gain an eternal perspective. Obviously, God is trying to do something here, but what is it he is trying to do? Is he trying to prevent us from doing something or push us towards something, teach us something, or just drive us towards him more? God doesn't ever just allow us to be wounded for the sake of being wounded. I've had to come to terms with that one in my own life. There has been so much hurt that sometimes it seems like I'm a giant bull's eye, but God doesn't work that way. God isn't playing target practice. God is good always. That is one truth I can always count on.

If anyone has any insight to share with me or a verse, I'd really appreciate it. Isaiah has his MRI tomorrow. All of these doctor's appointments and co payments I'm having to pay. It seems impossible to be able to work them all into a school schedule and job that are coming just around the corner. I'm just breathing in and out knowing that all things that come into my life go through God's hands first. He is able to sort out all the pieces of my situation. I need you Lord now more than ever.