Showing posts with label Daddy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Daddy. Show all posts

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Veteran's Day


Veteran's Day has always had a special meaning to me. My father was Captain John Plasky. He fought in World War II and in the Korean War. In fact, he walked with the help of crutches and finally was in a wheelchair as a result of injuries sustained while serving his country.

Everything my father did was done in an extraordinary way. I asked him for a specific book one day. A few weeks later, I received boxes and boxes of books such as Tolstoy, Dickens, Stevenson, and Austen to name a few authors. He even included a giant Amy Vanderbilt's book of etiquette. I didn't even know what the word etiquette meant!

He was the first man to bring me flowers and I always knew he loved me. He told me I looked like his mother and that her freckles were beautiful. When I was in his presence, I was no longer the sick, fat little girl with polio legs who didn't quite fit in.

He told me a few times that he wouldn't live long enough to see me grow up. I can remember him talking about my future and his desires for my future. I now know he was trying to sear his words into my little mind for when he was no longer around. I was too young to understand that those amazing blue eyes wouldn't always look into mine. His voice sounded like the voice of God and I believed he would be with me forever. June 5, 1979 was the saddest day of my life. Everyone says that time eases all pain. They are wrong.




   

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

True Love

Isaiah started his day saying he wanted to scratch out July 28 from the calendar so it would not exist. I later found out this was the day that Alex Ybarra's daddy and Isaiah's "true love" passed away. Please pray for my children. This will be a hard month without God's comfort and healing.



Friday, June 6, 2008

Rainy Days




My father died right before father's day.  Not really sure why I felt the need to share that today, but its been on my heart for two weeks now and I just felt like I had to "voice" it. He was a horribly abusive man that I loved with my entire soul. He wrote me the most wonderful love letter that I still have, gave me my first yellow rose and poem for my mother, had the deepest blue eyes and would have stood almost seven feet tall were it not for the ravages of war that left him horribly crippled and addicted to alcohol. I had a therapist that had me drive to his grave in San Antonio with a candy bar because she thought my food addictions began with him. I left the candy bar on his grave as a way to be free from my food addiction. It didn't work. Maybe I'll drive to his grave again soon. I don't talk about my father because discussions about him make me cry. I don't really want to talk about him so please don't ask about him. I just had to get it off of my chest. Its out now. Ugh.

Rainy days always seem to wash in change. Alexander came into the world on a rainy day. I took him home on a rainy day. I don't have time to list all the other examples, but there are so many positive and also painful examples of change brought by rainy days. Maybe we'll get our new home on a rainy day. Wash away all things that aren't of you today, Lord.